please look at me

Please look at me..
Like the way you used to look at me..
And you were always there
Long before I have to asked you to be there
And you are here besides me.. without me ever noticing
And your smile is what I seek today
Cause it gives me reason to go through my day..

Please look at me..
Like the way you used to look at me..
And I know you love me
Even when I'm not looking
Cause you're always there for me
In a way you like to play and hiding
And everytime you showed up for me
Those poetry and your gentle words, you wrote it only for me

If I have to beg
I'm willing to be on my knee
I just want you to remember
How much you really loves me

But that empty look in your eyes
Is not the way you used to look at me
How now I'm longing to see
That warmth gentle and loving eyes
That used to be mine
Is no longer the way.. you look at me..

I prefer to be blind now
For I'm not willing to see
How your love for me fades away now
Something that I could not bare to be

I'm a tree without a leaf
I'm a heart without love
I'm the moon without the stars
I'm the Sun without the shines
And I'm a poetry without a line...

LIGUOR ALCOHOL

nite,
cool wind penetrated our bone
searching for a warmer
searching a peaceful
i start with walk down roads
finally i found alcohol
first drink drop
it in on my blood
think something abash until paranoia
makes me high
second drink drop
it makes like ablaze head
and take out all baloney like clown
makes me more high
third drink drop
it makes my heart dissolved
tears my stomach
makes me higher
then i was supine
see the beauties from the belvedere
while waiting the predestined hour of death come
and i know,however i cant be abstemious

love,riginna april 20 2005

(i found this on my longest data. oh it's been so loong)

i call friendship

and i type this mind for my friends, my best friends i ever had


i love the rain

i love the sky

when i change into the bird

i will fly to another flower everytime

to feel how hard to life alone in dark

now i understand why you were here

to be there for me

together feel love

even we broke

thats why i call friendship

thanks for you to gimme the light for my day


dedicated to:
khetsya, kiki, army, nano, bony, reza, oumph, arien, mia, jowie.
i love u, all of u

major minor detail

i hate it when a song can really effect my mood and how i feel!
i hate it especially when i hear the song and i am really not ready for the mood swing!
this morning was mr. lerche's minor detail.
argh! i should've stop it before i realized track one was over! damn!

it's the pounding in the heart whenever you are gone without any trace
it's the breaking of the waves that were about to really carry someplace
it's a major minor detail
it's a solitary sequel to never knowing anything at all

it's the ticking of the clock when you wake up alone at seven AM
it's the thought of getting used to something so right and then just throw it away
it's a major minor detail
on a misty morning L train
and the fear of having to go back

you'll hear the piano sound
and know something turned around

it's the circus i bring on whenever i reach out to touch you my dear
it's the laws of our attraction and the fact that it's all going somewhere

it's a major minor detail
like erasing that old ghost trail
so one day i can be with you

and now it's too late..
i am having a gloomy morning. hmmpfff..