Being a girlfriend

Being a girlfriend is not just about being beautiful and attractive for your guy. It's not just about letting him chase you, letting him do sweet things every time you're mad at him and not just receiving flowers and gifts during your anniversaries. It's not about doing those girly things just to get his attention and not just about feeling mighty every time he did everything you want. It's also being an emotional partner wherein you support him in every opportunity that he takes, you appreciate everything that he does for you and you thank him for doing it, you remind him on the things he must do and what he must not. Just because you know that you can always keep him on his feet, doesn't mean you can manipulate him. You understand him not just as a partner but as individual too. you help him in every way showing him, that in a relationship, there’s no "I" or "you", there's only "we" and "us". You know also that a man has their ego, and even when it become a little irritating sometimes, you still understand that it's a part of his nature. A girlfriend is not just a term, it also has responsibilities that every girl must know. You’re a friend, a sister, a second mom, a teacher, and a best friend

yes, it's untitled!

Thank you
because without your support,i wouldn't be here
i wouldn't have stayed when things go hard
i wouldn't have believed that i could find a life.
thank you for the way you know me,
for being my best friend for what feels like forever,
and for raising the bar so high that i don't where to begin.
thank you for knowing to let go before things got ugly.
on some level, you must've known that forcing me to fly
would force you to fly too, to do the things you know you need.
and maybe you even share that belief that our paths
will join us together again, and for always

i hate you
for not wanting it badly enough,
for not believing we could do this together,
for not following through.
i hate that you didn't have the balls to take a chance,
to explore this place that's filled with your dreams.
i hate that you don't even seem to be doing
the things that made you stay
i hate that the way you tell me how you feel almost always hurts,
and that most of the time you just don't tell me at all.
i hate that you are only guy i can imagine loving,
and you make letting go seem so easy,
like it doesn't hurt at all,
like you don't ever cry.

FRICTION

every single night
spent staring red eyed at the ceiling in
gritted tooth revulsion at the thought of you
hissing cheap vodka confession into my skin

mine is firecracker existence
magnesium boned gunpowder insomniac
holding match heads to your grating sandpaper
LOVE



xoxo

Sun and Moon

i'm jealous of the sun
for it sees your messy hair
wringkled clothes
morning eyes
and tired yawns

i'm more jealous of the moon, though
for it sees you at your worst
when you're alone
just you and your thoughts
at midnite
and there's no hero to save you
as you're eaten alive
by the worries that plague you
and you're at your worst
but you're also at your simplest
when you are the most truthful
and week
and strong
and handsome

ALONE

alone into the world we come
alone we leave when we are done
alone we walk into the light
or to the dark which ever might
be the path that we shall choose
when this game of life we lose
a decision made while we are living
did we take or were we giving
will any mourn our passing
will are legacy be lasting
or will we have just lived and died
no mourners came or lovers cried
when in the end we're laid to rest
will they say we did our best
the best we could to do things right
and thus be welcomed by the light
or the darkness must we go
it's while we're living we should know


xoxo
290413

Soon

That thing that happens when there is a wind off the water on a humid summer morning. The clammy, cool, goosebumpy feeling that my skin takes on. the way my hair turns thick and unruly and tiny ringlets form at my temples and the nape of my neck. the way the sun drops diamonds on the horizon that make me squint my eyes, and how, when i lick my lips, i can taste the ocean on my tongue.

i am almost there. almost there

Sebenarnya Yang Dibutuhkan Wanita Hanyalah Pelukan

Tak peduli berapapun usianya, sebenarnya yang dibutuhkan wanita di situasi apapun adalah pelukan.

Mengembang kata emansipasi, wanita jaman sekarang yang ramah akan bantuan teknologi mendadak jadi angkuh. Merasa bahwa bisa melakukan segala sesuatu sendiri, lantas menutup diri dan tak membiarkan celah kasih sayang merangkulnya.

Wanita, saat sedang sendiri berusaha menutupi kesepiannya, menutupi titik lemahnya, dan menunjukkan seolah butuh pria. Apabila ada masalah, mereka sekarang cenderung lari pada alkohol, obat-obatan, jalan-jalan ke mall dan belanja gila-gilaan, atau ke salon. Apakah dengan itu beban di hati akan hilang? Tentu saja tidak. Yang jelas hilang ada uang yang dikeluarkan, entah berapa ratus ribu yang melayang.

Apakah lupa akan obat yang paling mujarab untuk segala masalah?

Mungkin saja lupa, atau sengaja melupakan. Dengan alasan ingin move on, tidak siap menjalin hubungan, atau masih ingin sendiri. Nggak heran kan, kalau banyak wanita single yang saat ini bilang tak siap dengan komitmen.

Jauh di lubuk hati, sebenarnya wanita menyadari bahwa segala materi yang dimiliki tak cukup buat dirinya menghilangkan kecewa dan penat yang ada.

Jauh di lubuk hati, sebenarnya wanita menyadari bahwa yang dibutuhkannya adalah pelukan.

Dear wanita,

Setelah membaca tulisan ini, pejamkan mata kalian dan katakan bahwa "aku telah membebaskan hatiku dari rasa sakit dan kecewa, kini aku siap membuka hati untuk cinta yang baru"

Buka hati yang telah lama dipaksa tertutup itu. Biarkan diri Anda merasakan kembali kenyamanan pelukan, biarkan diri Anda disembuhkan dengan obat mujarab yang efeknya jauh mengalahkan pergi ke mall atau ke salon.

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Dear sahabat pria,

Apabila Anda tak sengaja membaca tulisan ini, percayalah bahwa bukan materi yang Anda berikan yang dapat membuat wanita mencintai kalian dengan tulus dan dalam.

Adalah pelukan yang akan membuatnya sadar bahwa Anda adalah pasangan jiwanya...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat semua luka hatinya sembuh...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat semua kecewanya hilang...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat wanita tak selalu curigaan...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat wanita tak mudah cemburuan...

Adalah pelukan yang menanamkan kepercayaan dan kesetiaan di dalam hati wanita...

Adalah pelukan yang lebih berharga dari emas dan permata...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat hubungan semakin erat, bahkan lebih kuat menyatukan dua insan yang sedang jatuh cinta...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat hubungan jauh dari pertengkaran dan perselisihan paham...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat hubungan jauh dari segala perselingkuhan...

Adalah pelukan yang membuat cinta sejati itu tak pernah padam.

Wahai sahabat pria, lupakan segala minder dan ketakutanmu tak bisa membahagiakan pasanganmu. Karena pelukan akan mencukupi segalanya, seperti yang telah kukatakan kepadamu...

Mulai hari ini, pergi dan peluklah pasanganmu, saat kau bangun tidur, saat kau hendak bekerja, saat kau sedang emosi, saat kau punya masalah, saat kau bahagia, saat kau berlimpah harta, seluruh hidupmu, berikan pelukan untuk kekasih hatimu...